Last night was the first time that I was actually "touched" by a spirit.
R.O. and I conjured Taphthartharath to do some material manifestation work. Because we were making a talisman, I didn’t have time to fully prepare myself optimally for the experience. I took a hasty bath in complete darkness and tied my wet hair up in a white bar towel. We prepared the temple, carried in a shot of bourbon to share with the spirits, and began. As we began the rite, I became aware of a smell. It was an unpleasant yeasty smell, and I immediately ascribed it to the towel I had used to put my hair in. We purified one another with hyssop oil and then I took the towel off to put on my phylactery (a headband embroidered with the words ΑΟΘ ΑΒΡΑΟΘ ΒΑΣΙΜ ΙΣΑΚ ΣΑΒΑΟΘ ΙΑΟ). The smell vanished with the towel and was at that point replaced by the smell of the modified Abramelin oil we used to trace the beneficial sign on one another’s foreheads.
The usual Goetic precautions were taken to prevent any misadventures with T, and then we summoned him into the crystal. I could see hints of him in the crystal, and got the usual feeling of thickness in my shoulders that I associate with the presence of a spirit, but I also immediately got the sensation of his hands. They were chill, lizard-like and very large. I had the impression that they were black or gray in color and metallic, although this was not visually acquired data. Even whilst in the trance, I was grateful that I was not as open as I sometimes get for this particular rite.
It's worth noting here that my experience does not necessarily mean that the spirit was not fully contained by the circle and triangle on the Table of Practice. As many people "see" the spirits in the crystal, part of my interpretation of information coming out of the crystal seems to involve senses other than sight. Not probably very strange, but intense, to be sure.
We had a fruitful and interesting conversation with T, which I will not document here. His hands were on or near me during much of the rite, and I stayed very close to the surface (i.e. normal consciousness) so that I could easily escape them if they became too frightening or intrusive. There was a lasciviousness to the experience that was a real first for me.
At the end of the rite, we snuffed the candles and turned the lights on. The white candles we used had melted dark gray wax that had dribbled down their sides. The towel had a smell certainly, but it was not the strange unhealthy yeasty smell that it possessed as the rite began. Lastly, the remainder of the bourbon left for the spirits had developed a white cloudy precipitate.
Be thou blessed.